I decided to make my first writing about my own experience. As some of you might know, I’m a heavy weight shopper (of course on my own budget constraint as a college student with limited pocket money, blah blah) with a HUGE passion over bags and shoes, especially bags.
I often shop at impulse, buying things that would end up in my closet for years and never being used, I know how stupid is that, and don’t worry I’m definitely working on it. But this impulse is getting bigger and harder to control every time I got some extra money in my wallet.
Just like yesterday, I asked my Mom to take me to ManggaDua, a famous shopping center located in North Jakarta. Just a couple of minute before we go I grabbed my saving box and pull out some money out of it. And guess what happened? I almost scream out loud because I only found a couple of hundred rupiahs inside the box. But as I started to panic, my Mom calls out for me and I have to make the decision. If I ever tell her that somehow I lost my own money, she will cancel our trip and more disappointment there is for me.
So I decided to keep it as a secret and keep going to the mall with my Mom. During the trip I feel amazingly tortured, seeing stuff I won’t even think twice to buy while not having enough money to do it. I know that my Mom felt that there’s something wrong about me being quiet and all (especially in ManggaDua). But as she is a good mom, she definitely knows where my sensitive spot is and makes a good decision not to mention anything about it.
When we got home, I started to feel really bad about myself and decided to lock myself inside my room. I need some private space and time to ask myself:
How the hell did I spend that money?
I believe that I remember (mostly) about how I make use of my money, so I kind of feel disappointed in myself. How can I be so neglectful and lavishly use most of my money without I even remember about it?
I started to search out my saving box again, more carefully this time… and Voila! I found the rest of my money! Gosh! It’s always there! And all that happen is I didn’t search for it more carefully! I feel like the dumbest girl ever lived on the planet! (But of course I didn’t feel that way for too long! =P)
Overall, this experience of mine kind of slaps me in the face, and I started to realize, that I actually CAN hold back myself out of shopping! Wow! Superb isn’t it! Me, going to ManggaDua, and I only buy the stuff I really need! Now, that’s definitely something! I even rejected this cute silver vest that I KNOW will look great on me. Pff… I gues the only thing left is whether I want to hold myself back OR not. Nothing is impossible, eh? LOL…
